娃娃初戀 Puppy Love

我這人從小就很自卑。

 
和丈夫交往的時候，我們已經過了二十； 我們很相愛，而且都以為可以彼此相守了。

有一次，我掙扎著一種迫切感，想要將真實的自己袒呈給他。記得那時我帶著滿懷的羞慚與不安，老老實實地告訴他說，我不喜歡自己的腳和胸部。

輪到他了，只見他也支吾片刻，然後不痛不養地說：

「嗯，我也是，我有香港腳，還有就是…….嗯…….沒有了。」

回想起來，挺好笑，也很悲哀。

身為一個基督徒，我何竟一心記掛著自己的外表，以致未能花時間向心愛的男友多論及一些信仰、生命、個性、或是品格的問題！


I used to carry a heavy sense of inferiority toward myself since I was a very little girl.

My hubby and I were both at our twenties when I dated him.  We were in love, and thought we could be with each other forever.

One day, I struggled to feel a strong need of letting him know some of my weakness.  I remember I finally uttered, with shame, unease and honesty,  “I don’t like my feet and my breasts.”

I guess it was then his turn, for after pausing a few seconds, I heard him responding, with a tone of not much expression.

“Me too,” he said, ” I’ve got the Athlete’s Foot, and also I ……well…..nothing.”

It seems funny now, yet I am deeply saddened as I recall.

As a Christian, why should I be so preoccupied by my own appearance that I seldom took time to talk about faith, life, character or integrity to my beloved boyfriend?

(By Julia Chou)